I'm tired

I think this is the closest I have ever come and would ever come to writing something close to poetic. I'll let the words speak for themselves.

I'm tired of holding on,
To all the things I ought to leave behind,
It's really getting old, and
I think I need a little help this time!

I'm tired of filling up the voids and empty spaces in my life,
There are so many now that I feel hollow deep inside,
Its getting really hard, and
I think I need a little help this time!

I'm tired of my life,
So uninteresting, so sad, so lonely,
Its getting unbearable,
I think my soul will die if I don't get a little help this time.

--Nimay Shah

Heart and Mind Unification

There are some thoughts and feelings where my mind and heart (respectively) don't actually fall on the opposite banks of a river. I thought this video describes it in a better way then my writing. However, not only are these matters pertaining to the heart but also matters where the heart rules over the mind and directs its thoughts. This is the case for me at least.

So, thats one more sad / depressing blog post I guess. I wonder if I have been genuinely happy in the past few months for a period greater than a few hours.